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TO DRAW THEM IS OUR CAUSEEEEE


-Kavilene (2013)

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Hi

Sun May 17, 2015, 4:31 AM


It's me
Blackcaress

To those who are asking
Don't worry.
This isn't a soul of a deceased person typing
but a live body typing, talking to you all

I'm still alive
As you can see
duh
wow
But you may be wondering
why I haven't popped out for like 4+ months or so
And I suddenly left some groups
Or is extremely inactive

So to make things clear
Clarify some misunderstandings
Some rushed conclusions

I am sick. Very sick.
I won't go into technical details, since.. I dont think you'll like to hear it 
But all I can say is I am diagnosed with a terminal disease
And it's incurable for all I know

I still have work.
I still have a house to sustain
I still have to rest

So all this piled up is stressing me so 
Until my body finally gave up

So I have to take care of myself 
And unfortunately, I really couldn't find time for rp groups
It's like either give up food, or give up rp groups. You know what I'm saying?
So, ofc, as a human being, I need food. I can't rly give it up ... haha 
So i gave up some rp groups 

So why am i saying this?
again. I want to clarify somet hings.
Ease your worries.
And inform yo what is happening. 

I still love rp groups, and i find it hard to leave some... 
But, I find it very difficult to be active in one 
Hard life. LOL

So here I'll say it.
I'm sorry if I'm inactive
I'm sorry if I'm not there where u need me
I'm sorry I'm not that blackcaress you guys once knew 
Sorry for everything
i guess lol

I guess that's all LOL 

anyway. 
With the few weeks of my vacation
I'll try to be active in some rp groups
in art
in whatever
I love them.
Don't worry, I won't do it if I don't feel right.

And If i can ask.
Do not worry about me.
Do not say "OMG. ARE YOU OKAY?"
Do not mourn
Do not be sad.

The last thing I want before anything ends is sadness

let's stay happy yes?

:iconsuperw00tplz:


  • Listening to: best day of my life - American Authors

by Blackcaress


To. Rani


When I met you, I was killed by arrows of Dear Cupid 
Your long hazel nut hair made me question my heart 
Your gemlike amethyst eyes made the stars dull and plain
Your rare and yet angelic smile made me fall down, weak, in-love 
I fell in-love, like never before. 
Like there were no other women in the world
But you, my hazel beloved

I questioned myself 
Love at-first sight is impossible, illogical, irrational 
I asked myself
Are you playing again?
Are you treating this fast heartbeats a game again? 
How dare you feel that way to such an angel?
I forbid you 
I have to get away from her

But fates are cruel, you see.
Fate have this foolish magic
To bring me, a demon, to you, such a fragile hazel angel
Fate. Please stop.
Fate. This hurts.
I do not want to hurt her. 
I do not want to play her.
I want to love her. 

And so I did.
My Job, I left behind
My reputation, I ignored
My fans, I forgot
I became a waiter without your knowledge 
To you, I'm an actor
To you, I'm cool
Such a fake image I have 
Only for you, I sacrificed
My stardom 
My everything

You are my everything. 

But I hurt you. 
I destroyed you.
As a demon I am
I did the inevitable.

I forgot you.
I ignored you.
I left.
To support you.
I hurt you.

Fate. Please stop.
Fate. Why do you do this magic
Of bringing two people together.
But only to break them apart.

But alas. I see you happy.
Your angelic smile, bright and visible 
For everyone to see
Not only me.
You've changed.
You started talking
You started to care 
You made friends
And more and more. 
You've changed
For the better

That's what I love about you.
That's every thing I ever wished for. 
Your happiness.
Your never-ending shine.
Please. Angel. Do not Fade Away.

My Hazel Hair Beloved
I am a demon
You are an angel
Unrequited Love can never be possible
I can never not hurt you
You can never be happy with me

Alas, I will never forget your kindness. 
I will never forgot your compliments
Your love, oh sweet gentle love
I will never forget your soft lips
As red as cherry, as soft as marshmallow
I will never forget your beautiful hazel nut hair
A hair I love to brush my hair, and gets captured by it
I will never forget your red soft cheeks
That never stops to amaze me at how it can be redder every minute
I will never forget your mad face
That scolds me at all of my stupid mistakes
I will never forget your embarassed face
That shames me from my pure randomness
I will never forget your teary face 
That cries because you are happy
That cries
because I hurt you


I will never forget you


Alas
It is impossible

Good bye.
I fell in love.
I'm still in love
I'll never fall out of love. 

To Rani
My Hazel Nut Beloved
To my hazel hair beloved - Shi
A demon. 
An Angel.
They met.
They fell in love.
The demon hurts.
The angel cries.
Alas.
It is impossible. 
Goodbye.


:iconlazypoolplz:
So. Within the few weeks I am available.
Ima say some goodbye letters to those whom I have left
Maybe you guys be happy. 
And find someone better than me / my hcaracters. 
We may have hurt you.
But we still love you.



We're just not in the group



So yeah.
This poem/letter
is like an apology letter
From too much working, because Shi had to sustain himself and Rani, Shi forgot and hurt Rani 
Rani was so happy without him. Rani was the angel Shi fell in love without him.
So Shi feels so guilty
and so this happened.

Shi left this at Rani's doorsteps... 

Shi moved to America, to leave Rani alone, and never hurt her again.
Shi found a job as one american tv show's writer.

So that is Shi.

This is dedicated to :icontashaj4de: / :iconojraniplz: 

idk. listen to this maybe while reading? www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bshGH… </s>


Shi / Author (C) me

next letter. To TBH & Lainey
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PANDORA GARDEN

Sun Jan 4, 2015, 8:54 AM


:iconheplz:

Do I have to say it?

yes

JOIN 

PANDORA GARDEN


:iconpandoragarden:

why?

Why even ask why?
That's like love

Don't need a reason
Just feel, man
feel

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  • Listening to: best day of my life - American Authors

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CHIBI MEE by Blackcaress
RP-er, Artist, Slow Replier.
Not an emo
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Thank you very much


For all who:


-gave me a llama
-watched me
-faved my arts
-gave me some rabbu
-and became my friend


Thank you from the bottom of all my fetus heart

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Kavilene Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Darling???
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Claradeso Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014
BLACK IM SO SORRY OMG BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY IM USELESS
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